Okay, so. Not a lot has happened recently. Today I finished my Silver Youth Arts award, finally. Did my reviews, looked back at everything I have ‘learned’, etc. Reminisced.. and then thought ‘fuck, i’ve got to do this all again for the next two years.’ Today I found out i’ve got to do it on the last week for two days..
Then, I finally got a deviantART. Mostly because I need somewhere to put all my crap, and by crap, I mean ‘art’. I’m not generally an artistic person, I doodle from time to time, but my scribbles resemble exactly that – scribbles. I’m more of a music and literature kind of girl. Not really much keen on photography either, not like the majority of the people who took Youth Arts. I mean, there isn’t much skill in taking an upside down photo of your face, which is half covered by hair, is there? I’ve finished now anyway.
(♥ Banksy)
Edit: My ipod went through the washing machine.. now it’s sizzling. I think it might explode.
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you-ology, me-ology, love-ology, kiss-ology, stay-ology, please-ology..
Yesterday was the variety show. It went a lot better than expected, and even the parts which didn’t go well were good. Designed the display, which took forever to make and put up, hardly anyone saw it which sucked. Had a massive battle with Photoshop in the Art rooms, but the most important thing was the amount of money we raised for charity. We’ll find out final figures on Monday, but I imagine it is around the £500 mark as before it even started we had £300.
I’m thinking about taking the Gold Youth Arts award next year. It’s a year early and equivalent to an A-level, i’m just not sure that i’m ready for it. I said that I didn’t want anything to stressing because i’ve got my exams next year, but it’s stretched across two years to reduce the workload, I suppose. I’ve also got to choose an area that i’m not familiar with. I could do dance, or dramatic theatre to completely tip the scales. Or I could do something more artistic like fine art or something in the visual arts. It’d get me into a decent University, especially if I ended up taking Philosophy and Ethics, Psychology and English Language & Lit. It’d mean I wouldn’t have to take something like Music because it’d be covered in my award. So then i’d have Arts, English, Science and Religious studies.
Love is so fickle, it’s starts with a flood and ends in a trickle..
I learned a very good lesson yesterday. In English we were talking about a poem called ‘Love After Love’ by Derek Walcott. Bell talked about being in a relationship for a long time, and how you forget yourself because you lose yourself in love. She went on to say that love will come and love will go, but you live and die in your own arms. And I think that one line has totally changed my way of thinking. It hit hard. At first I thought that she was just cynical and pessimistic. That love possibly, if you found the right person could last ‘forever’. But then, you think of yourself as nieve. I mean, i’ve only been in love once.. But i’ve been in a long term relationship twice. The thing is, your idea of ‘true love’ changes to fit around the person you are with. I always thought I was in love with the first person I got with, that we would last forever. We broke up, however, and a year later I found someone else and they totally changed my perception of love and it made me think I wasn’t so in love with the first person after all. So really, I think it’s about rediscovering yourself after a relationship has ended. I’ll post the poem so you can come up with your own conclusions.
Love After Love – Derek Walcott
I’m also a little in love with Tyler Burkum at the moment.. For now though, I need to finish my coursework. Happy tuneage.
