Today has kind of sucked. Ironically, I woke up in a really good mood. But lets not dwell on that, or the fact that I still have a zillion and one things to do before the end of the year, which is taking it’s time in approaching.. twenty five days until work experience, which leads to another thirty two days before the year is out. Which means, if I was American, i’d be entering Tenth Grade – Year Eleven. I still need to choose a twilight yet, and i’m not riding a bike for a GCSE. I think i’ll jump off that bridge when I come to it.
Summer soon though. I don’t know whether to be excited or petrified to be honest. I like to be out, I just think that six weeks in an incredibly long time. Plus, everything tends to change. The people you hang out with, your schedule.. You discover the people that you take a liking to, that you don’t really spend enough time with, kind of disappear. Anyway, Today I watched some friends jam. It was cool, nice to get away from the people I usually stay with for a change. Even if they were playing MCR. 
I’ve got Landlocked Blues in my head. For some reason, it makes me want to write or paint. Start a creative endeavor. I never finish anything that I start though. I hate change, but whenever I start anything and it goes wrong I have to start again from the beginning. I need to start prioritising, realising what means the most to me.. Making sacrifices and whatnot. I guess I mainly need to start stop being so passive about everything and start accepting that things are veering off track a bit. A lot. Maybe try and get them on track, or start again. I imagine in ten years time, things won’t be like this. I don’t know, but through what people older than me have said, it seems like they forget all about secondary school. It’s just school, college, uni and then work. People come and go, I suppose. Sometimes I wish everything was motionless though, that things could stop. Because when you stop, things keep moving. I know, i’m being vague. /Inspirational speech
Anyway, my head is having a nasty little war with the rest of my body and I could really do with going to bed soon. I just hope this coffee can keep me awake for another few hours so I can finish this coursework.
